Making That Walk

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WALKING AWAY IS DEFINITELY EASIER SAID THAN DONE. AS MUCH AS WE KNOW THAT THE SITUATION WE ARE IN IS UNHEALTHY AND TOXIC.WHY DO WE GET THE FEELING AS IF WE MADE THE WRONG DECISION WHEN WE DECIDE TO WALK AWAY. WE SECOND GUESS WHAT WE KNOW IS RIGHT. WE SECOND GUESS ALL THE RIGHT CHOICES. WHY DON’T WE SECOND GUESS ALL THE UNHEALTHY CHOICES. WE DIVE HEART FIRST & THINK ABOUT IT AFTER THE FACT. EVERYTHING BAD MAKES US FEEL SO GOOD. SHIT, WELL AT LEAST IT DOES TO ME. AS MUCH AS I KNOW SOMEONE IS NO GOOD FOR ME, IT MAKES ME WANT TO STAY EVEN MORE.BUT WE NEED TO FIND THE STRENGTH TO WALK AWAY.

SOMETIMES THEY COME BACK.THEY COME BACK STRONG.OF COURSE WE GET WEAK. THEN IT FEELS GOOD FOR AWHILE. YOU START SEEING ALL THE REASONS WHY YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH THEM. THEN BEFORE YOU KNOW IT IS BACK TO THE SAME OLD THING.THEN YOUR ASKING YOURSELF WHY? WHAT HAPPENED.

THEN YOU HAVE THE TIMES WHERE YOU WALK AWAY.BUT WHEN THEY COMEBACK, YOU TURN AWAY.YOU FIND THAT STRENGTH. SOMETIMES IT HURTS,HELL MOST TIMES IT DOES HURT.BUT THERE’S NO WAY IT WILL WORK. AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE THEM YOU HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO LETS GO AND LETS GO FOR GOOD. THAT MEANS SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. SWOLLEN EYES FROM CRYING OVER THE SIMPLEST THINGS. THINGS THAT DON’T EVEN RELATES TO THEM. YOU START TO SECOND GUESS EVERYTHING YOU DID DURING YOUR TIME TOGETHER.

WHAT YOU COULD OF DONE BETTER.HOW COULD YOU HAVE CHANGED SO THE RELATIONSHIP COULD OF WORKED.IN REALITY YOUR NOT THE ONE WHO NEEDED TO CHANGE.YOU MAY NOT HAVE DONE EVERYTHING RIGHT.BUT YOU DIDNT DO EVERYTHING WRONG.SHIT IT IS NOT ALWAYS ALL YOUR FAULT.WE USUALLY PUT ALL THE BLAME ON OURSELVES.

ONLY BECAUSE WE DON’T EVER FULLY UNDERSTAND.WE MAY NEVER FULLY UNDERSTAND.

WHAT BROUGHT THE RELATIONSHIP TO THE POINT OF NO RETURN. IT WAS NOT ONLY YOU.WE SURELY FEEL LIKE WE ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE SUFFERING. IN REALITY SOMETIMES THEY JUST DON’T GIVE A FLYING FUCK. CAUSE IN THEIR HEADS ITS BEEN OVER, AND IT WAS A RELIEF FOR THEM WHEN YOU DECIDED TO LEAVE.

ON THE OTHER HAND YOU DO HAVE THOSE WHO ACTUALLY CARE AND IS HURTING AS WELL.BUT OF COURSE THEIR PRIDE WONT LET THEM SHOW IT. THEY GO ON WITH LIFE BURNING ON THE INSIDE, AND ON THE OUTSIDE THEY ARE ABLE TO LIVE LIKE AS IF NOTHING IS EVEN WRONG……

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